Wait.

Hello. I am back. And its going to be 2010. I'm ambivalent at most about it. I will not welcome it graciously with open arms neither would I try hard to evade it. Somehow the four numbers scare me. I don't know what to expect. I hate being uncertain. I hate being made a fool by 'what ifs'.

Sighs. I feel like hugging my new bags from Singapore and just cry. What am I going to do for 2010?

Well. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

Knock. Knock.

Lord...I'm waiting.

Joy To The World.

Excuse me for the sad lack of updates. In my defense, I have been busy. A handful of friends are back for their holidays. Yip yip :) I have been to Damai twice, lost my uncle, got my results back, ate ate ate and nothing but, bringing Van around Kuching, and so much more. I will be heading to Singapore tomorrow. I am still a tad bit apprehensive on whether I should just splurge and go have high tea at the Raffles Hotel. It is EXPENSIVE. That's expected. Should I?Or shouldn't I?I will update S.O.O.N. Hahaha I've got tons and tons of pictures. Just to state the obvious, today's Christmas. Though I have never been an avid enthusiast of this particular holiday, I would just like to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas :)

You happy? :p

Eiffle Dreams.

I woke up today dreaming of Paris. Of sunflowers in Arles. Of croissants and eclairs. The Lourve and the Luxembourg garden. Sitting down at the Cafe de la Paix, watching the whole of Paris go by in all its resplendent grandeur. Looking at the grandiose display of Diors and Chanels. Ambling down Champs Elysees, intoxicated by all that Paris has to offer. Indeed a feast for all senses.

I woke up with a vivid anamnesis of Mona Lisa sitting next to my bed. She turned, gave me that familiar smile of hers and said "Fais de beaux rêves."

Why Does It.

Why does it feel like I'm suffocating at times?That I can't breathe and I have to constantly grapple for that diminutive lacuna just to be myself, which has become even more tenuous over time. Why can't I just embrace every nonpareil element that embodies me? Just the way I am. Unabridged. Completely. Why can't I pursue the avidities and aspirations of my heart?Sometimes, I do miss how it feels like to be unconfined by the coverted dictums of what we know as amour.

This is just another ephemera of discontent. I do realize that I can be rather self-centered and adamant in my own ways every now and then. But I am fully aware of my adherence. I bear no sense of remorse. I know my place and where my heart should be.

Just sometimes.

I wish you'd let me.

Girl Power.

Sometimes I like being a girl :)

What I Like.

But I like it.

Clockwork.

Everything succumbs to time. The irrefutable vulnerability of life itself is in the hands of time. But time is implacable, and the fact that life is unfair betokens how brief life simply is.

Tick Tock goes the Clock.

To try to comprehend time would be anyone's grave mistake. Don't go against time. That will be ludicrous because you'll be walking a tightrope between the barriers of life and death. Comply with time. And appreciate every single moment. Every single breath. A lesson humans have failed to discern, we will never stop taking things for granted. We may realise this today but we'll be the same again tomorrow. Humans are susceptible to mortality.

Time, however, is immortal.

Fairy Tale.

I still believe in fairy tales.

Rain.

Rain rain. Don't go away.

I Spy with My Fisheye.

Behold my very first lomo :) :) :) IT'S A FISHEYE!!!I am still delirious with joy!!!I've been eyeing this baby on the lomo online store forever!It's a Fisheye No.2 Chromiacs Edition :D With its full metal jacket, I'll say that my baby kicks ass :)

I'm saving for my next lomo. I want an action sampler :) :) :)

Credits to Van!I L Y!